My sweet sweet baby
I wish I could tell you the next year of your life would be the happiest year so far. Even if I could’ve I’m sure you wouldn’t have believed me because we’re such pessimists lol I’m sorry you felt you the only way to make it through life is to numb all your feelings and be mediocre. You hated it every step of the way because we are not mediocre and not to sound rude or anything but we’re just not built that way. I know you were merely just existing, nothing mattered and everything seemed so bleak You had just had the worst year of your life (sorry nothing can top 2017’s sadness) and figured the solution was just to exist so you wouldn’t be invested and then get hurt I know you made no effort and zero memories this year because you felt there was none to be made but baby girl I’m happy to announce to you that 2019 is filled with memories. I legit feel so grateful when I can stay at home during the weekend and just relax! We’ve built up some great and solid friendships this year and honestly, I fucking live for the (semi) carefree thing I’ve got going right now. But thanks for making an effort with your birthday even though you felt it was a facade and essentially forced yourself to have one. I appreciate the effort you put into it, you’re a real one. Thank you for seeking help when you felt there was absolutely no need to exist anymore because if you didn’t I would not be here right now and we wouldn’t have experienced 2019 the way we did. You don’t know it yet (obviously lol I’m from the future) but it made all the difference. :) We’re confident about our life now and, wait for it, actually planning for the future (you know how much happiness this brings us) and yeah it’s lit !
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